I am very tired.
I think, at this point, most students are very tired. It's been a strange winter, and everyone says junior year is the hardest, but no matter what year you're in, it's always going to exhaust you. Even if you genuinely love learning, even if you have a passion for your subjects, the whole school institution stretches people, students and teachers, thinner than they have any need to be. The short timeline of the latest project- about a week- has been stressful, on top of all the other stresses. It's better that I worked alone- communication, quickly and comprehensively, is always difficult- but I'm still not quite satisfied with my product.
If I had more time, I might be able to summon more to put into the video. I know that's what everyone says, that if there was only more time, if only, if only, if only, things would be better. The hope is that, in the future, there will be more time. I know that some regard it as an expression of indecisiveness or laziness, but that's not been my experience. Truly desparate people, struggling with difficult, human things, wish for more time.
Well, now it's done. Now, on to the next thing, and the next, and the next. We'll see what happens. We can't know now. Isn't that always how it goes?
